Beast From Water

Dear Journal,

Today I called an assembly, because things are going way out of hand on the island. I am chief, but no one listens to me! We had agreed that to make life easier people would go and get the coconuts filled with water so that we don't have to go and get it on our own, wasting precious time. Then the signal fire! Someone (Jack) "forgot" about his job and decided to take the little ones for a hunt. Really there are more important things then hunting! Because of him the signal fire went out right when a ship passes by! We could have been off the island by now. Also now the boys have suddenly decided to relieve themselves near our living quarters and our food. Now everything is going to be infected. After the whole jungle being burned down, and us (we think) losing a boy decided on having the fire ONLY for the signal fire, but of course that isn't the case. Fear is something else we are dealing with. Poor kids are scared out of their mind. All sanity is gone.

All of this is very frustrating to me I am not sure how I feel right now.

Jack, I am sure, desperately wants to be chief, and he is doing a good job of getting people of going on "his side". Everyone is splitting up. Either you are on my side or Jack's side. You are either a hunter or... well I'm not sure what I am. I don't feel like chief. At least I have Piggy and Simon sticking with me. I almost resigned from chieftainship. "What's the point?" I said, but they have more faith in me then I think I'll ever have. Yes they have slightly convinced me to not give up, for us three are the only ones on the island that still have our sanity. If you can say that. Jack and I quarrel now. We were once best friends. Though I'd never admit it, but those memories bring tears to my eyes. There is a great split in my life. How are we to survive when we don't all stick together.

The Littluns cry now at night. They think that a monster lurks somewhere in the forest. What foolishness! Everything is falling apart. What are the grown ups going think of us now? A beastie. Ha! What a joke. Though the thought does start to get to me once in a while.

That Percival Wemys Madison is afraid of the beast from the water!! First the jungle now the water? This is quite ridiculous I have to say.

Someone, oh I can't remember exactly, mentioned something about the dirtiest thing there is about human nature. I have never really thought of that before. Well we humans now that I think of it are quite dirty! We are selfish, greedy, one-minded, boastful, proud ,( That one isn't too bad), violent, ignorant. Wow the list could go on and on.

What's the point in even making decisions now if after I tell them what the new orders are, the conversation just end in a riot! Being chief is not all it turned out to be. It doesn't even feel like I am the chief!

I feel allot older, and less carefree then I was before. I don't feel like a child anymore. At the same time though I do.

-Ralph